Assignment #4

When I first began posting my postcards, I started late and therefore did not post them in order. For assignment number four I will give descriptions of the two postcards in which I am discussing before talking about what happened in between them.

Feet standing on the remains of Berlin wall and standing in front of the graffiti at YAM

I found a small haven below some trees that was painted with the most brilliant colors, a man walked behind me smoking a joint and I remember the sickly-sweet smell as I stared at the art on the wall. The sun was burning the skin on our necks and the beach was near water. Toby suggested walking into the YAM and explained the significance of it. It was a placeholder until something better came along. It was a place for the youth to express themselves through art, but it wasn’t something that would last forever. As we explored this little world to the right of civilization I saw there were lovers consumed with one another on the beach side and children playfully running with an innocent joy.

Standing in front of graffiti at YAM and the “Stay Free” on the Berlin wall.

There was a short time in between these two postcards because I found them both really powerful. I remember a small asthma attack. I remember walking behind Toby, Adam and Lauren as they all decided to light up together. I remember being angry, but also desperate for my inhaler. My lungs were slowly closing and I could feel my deep gasp for breathe barely entering my lungs at all. It was like drowning when you are swimming perfectly well. With each stroke of your arm you fall deeper in the water. I found my inhaler, i eventually recovered to no ones knowledge but stayed away from the next situation.

“Stay Free” to long multicolored wall art

From the time I saw the “Stay Free” art and then got to the store for this postcard a long day had passed. I specifically remember lying on the grass outside of the postcard shop to the left of the end of the wall. It was near water and I could hear the slight waves and the sound of the water splashing against the side of the river walls and the breeze hitting my face as I took a deep breathe. It was a perfect moment I wanted to freeze time. To lie in the sun all day as it slowly baked my skin and the breeze helped me survive its heat. In the slight shadow of the O2 building, it was a thrilling place to be, free, American, and relaxed along the wall.

Multicolored wall art and the two politicians kissing postcard

When I was looking at the politician postcard I remember a few of the conversations around me. I remember talking to Trang about which piece was her favorite and she asked likewise. After lying in the summer and forcing ourselves to get up and look at postcards, Trang and I reminisced about the different pieces we had witnessed. She mentioned the same piece that I enjoyed most. The large, intricately painted multicolored piece that I just previously been looking at was her favorite as well. She had noticed the same things that I had, the Eiffel Tower, the Twin Towers, Big Ben etc. all painted on the head of one of the figures in the painting.

Politicians Kissing postcard and the car breaking through postcard

I had decided to take a break from looking at postcards and jogged inside to grab bottled water, after becoming desperately dehydrated from our walk and the sun. I grabbed one of the cooled bottles from a large refrigerated door. After about 1 and a half minutes trying to figure out which bottle was regular water and which was carbonated I found what I wanted and took it to the counter, the woman, who was strikingly beautiful (deep green eyes, olive skin and incredibly thick black hair that came past her shoulders, I wouldn’t forget because I have always wanted hair like that) spoke in a broken English and asked if I needed anything else, I ran back grabbed some postcards and paid. After saying “donka” she replied, “cheers!”

Car breaking through postcard and the soviet army memorial

There was a long walk in between these two images. Yet the one thing that cannot be erased from my memory in this time lapse was the image of a house we passed on the way to the memorial. It was a house that was so distinctively like my house in Seattle it made me almost freeze. It was a white washed house made of clean lined wood, big black shudders that rimmed every window in the front of the home. A deep, blood red door that had a gold handle and carving along the top. The house was fenced in by black wrought iron. A small garden in the front lawn and hand-laid stone walkway…I was more homesick then I may have thought.

Soviet Union memorial and the endless room in the Parliament

The noise rang in my ear, over and over rolling around the tin bowl until I thought my head would explode. I ran away as fast as I could. Before meeting our group at the American embassy I ran to my favorite restaurant Vapianos, ate far to swiftly and within 15 minutes my body let me know, vomit was on the way. I jogged to the nearest bathroom at a local restaurant close to the embassy and after quietly doing my busy as fast as my body would allow, I walked out of the stall to find a German woman, yelling at me. He hair was cropped close to her head and the curls wound around her ear. Thankfully a younger British woman explained that I needed to pay a euro to use the bathroom. I wont forget the angry that ran through my veins as I dropped the euro into her tin can.

The Endless room in the parliament and the mirrored town in the Parliament

In between these two photos was a moment that I will always appreciate, our tour guide for the parliament was talking and we were being a bit inconsiderate and loud, she was really annoyed. I remember her rolling her eyes, speaking monotone and looking at us like we couldn’t have been college students. As annoyed as I was I held my tongue until I heard John try and joke “stupid Americans” and that infuriated me. Shawn calmly leaned over and said to him “NO. Nooo” and I just about died with happiness.

The mirrored tower in the Parliament and the Stassi Museum sign

I think everyone in our program can agree Anna is probably the cutest human being of all time. One moment that is represented in this time between is on the way to the Stassi Museum. Anna was on the subway bobbing her long, perfectly wavy (can you tell I’m jealous?) hair to the beat of whatever was playing her i-pod. She had her eyes closed and a silly grin pulling at the corners of her mouth. I saw her foot tapping and she seemed so content in her moment, I wish I had a camera and could have stolen that moment for her so she could have seen how pure her happiness was. She was adorable. I can’t even imagine what was running through her mind. And by the way, the song was “5000 miles.”

The Stassi Museum sign and the painting of Adam and Eve

It had the consistency of what I remember to be chicken but the flavor of a more rich tasting meat. The bread was thick and perfectly toasted, the lettuce was right out of the garden fresh and crispy! The garlic sauce was thick and flavorful, and it didn’t hurt that garlic is my all time favorite flavor. I also opted to have the yogurt sauce and nothing else, but it was a perfect combination. I had tried my first doner. But beyond the fact that I had simply tried this multi-flavored dish, in the process of consuming it I was also consuming lamb for the very first time in my life. Considering how I cannot eat about 75% of all meat I was thrilled to find a new one that I enjoyed and wasn’t allergic to. It was like a caesar salad in bread that had a sweeter and meaty feel. In the end I can say, “I love doners.”

The painting of Adam and Eve and the Outside of the Concentration camp

After a pretty decent amount of time in Berlin the one comfort I was thrilled to meet at was Starbucks. I ordered a quick drink and asked for a “Venti ice water as well” the barista looked at me like I was a fool. She stared at me then grinned a snow-white smile, and repeated the order. I thought for a minute, that maybe it just took a moment to register but now he got it. Needless to say I was wrong, he began to laugh hysterically repeating it over and over. He walked away from the counter to retrieve my drink. He never brought my water.

The outside of the concentration camp and the holocaust memorial

Cracks everywhere, I can only imagine what fell into those cracks, I’d rather not imagine though. Our tour guide talked about the loud music that was played in one room to drown out the sound of death in the nearby room. I saw the distance between the rooms though, it was no more then 15 feet, and the walls may have been thick but we can’t be naïve to the truth. Station Z. This was one of the times in your life that you are grateful for having experienced but the moment that you actually experience it, its almost too much to handle and you consider leaving. I’m happy I didn’t leave but the image of the actual rooms, small but thickly built. There is no way they didn’t hear anything. I can see their eyes in my mind and whether it was by an invisible gun or a gun to the face, the fear never left and never changed what happened.

The holocaust memorial and the Pergammon Museum entrance

I walked into a room the size of our apartments and it felt like walking into a cloud made of tobacco. The groups of people stuck together like glue were segregated like junior high children. No one was open to the public but rather turned into the circle and down into their conversation. The bartender was there definitely as a job and not for the social aspect as he ignored my comments and me in any attempt to befriend him. I went to a bar that night and I will forget because I learned the difference between an American bar and Berlin bar. You can smoke everywhere, bartenders aren’t being nice for an extra tip and there aren’t people looking to meet people. I never returned to that bar.

The Pergammon Museum entrance and the inside of the Pergammon Museum

After a long evening the night before hand I was very tired when we had arrived at the museum. The tour guide in my eyes didn’t seem to know how to really captivate an audience and I was off in my own mind quickly. His voice didn’t seem to have any pitch to it but a mere flat tone like a piano stuck on one key. I found a seat on the stairs that lead up to what seemed to be the ceiling of the immensely large room. I saw and stared at the remarkable craftsmanship that was before me. It was so delicately carved and so much detail that it was almost like someone stood there frozen and painted beige. I could have stayed there all day, but instead the security barked at me to move.

The inside of the Pergammon Museum and the Hagia Sofia Church

The long, twisting, never-ending security line. All the people sweating, breathing heavily and waiting, just waiting. In front of me was a young woman crying with her head covered in a lace, light blue scarf. She was staring at her husband who was standing behind the ropes about 20ft away. They were waving, crying and I could feel her heart inside of my own chest aching. For that moment I froze and watched them. I began to cry with them remembering when I had left my family at the airport. The husband then lifted his hand to his ear and made the symbol for a telephone. Almost 5 seconds later her phone began to ring and she answered as they stood now 30ft away talking but so remorsefully it broke my heart. I cried with them as they parted and watched her wipe her face as she entered into the terminal.

The Hagia Sofia church and the gold dome

I came across a stand that was filled with grilled corn, sweet bread loaves and twisted, seeded pretzels. I missed breakfast that morning and as we walked past Hagia Sofia I was ready for some serious nutrition. I was soon to learn that these are pretty common stands all around the city. I couldn’t decide at first but eventually chose the sweet bread. It was wonderful! It was warmed by the bright Turkish sun and tasted as if it was sweetened by honey rather then sugar. The first bit was fluffy and thick, easy to swallow and nearly melted in my mouth. I want one right now as a matter of fact.

The gold dome and the Istanbul hilltop

As we were sitting in our Mercedes, white leather tour bus we drove past some homes that were nearly hanging off of a cliff in the hills of Istanbul. It each window I saw faces of women and children with the largest, teeth filled smiles I had ever seen. The littler girls sitting barefoot on their stoop stood and waved and even tried to chase the bus as we continued our drive down the hill. The young girl began to gather a small group as she chased us, her smile began widening and her steps quickening. I couldn’t believe the joy she got from this momentary encounter.

The Istanbul hilltop and the Kenyon Mall

Before we made it to the Kenyon Mall I made a quick stop at a Subway because I had unfortunately forgot breakfast that morning. On my way out of the store with my sandwich in hand I was waiting at a crosswalk for the light to change and a young girl, barefoot and tanned from the sun all day approached me. She was wearing what almost looked like a dirtied canvas bag around her with holes for her arms to go through. Despite her attire, she had to largest brown eyes I have ever witnessed. A deep chocolate brown that almost melted into a hazelnut color in the center. I nearly stared at her for a moment as she tried to sell me some bracelets hanging from a stick she was holding. I didn’t buy anything from her at the moment, but I can’t forget her eyes when stop to think about that moment. I wish had bought something.

Postcards...

Moving

Unique architecture

expensive stores

busy people shopping

unnoticed

tight security

dirty looks

Kenyon is a mall like nothing I have ever been to. The security here is almost against us coming in due to the probability of our lack of purchasing. They don't let the man in rags come in or the young barefoot girl with olive, smooth skin. But they let me in; Spanish, American, cleanly dresses, purse present in left hand, canon brand camera in right. The building itself, as you can see in the photo was built for the wealthy. It is littered by Marc Jacobs and Zac Posen stores, departments of silk and cashmere with an occasional cotton piece, but only to wear underneath a 100% wool peacoat with gold double-breasted buttons. This is the mall I am seeing, people aimlessly shopping, full bags, empty eyes ignoring what lies behind the Kenyon wall. As we wait for a bit as everyone finished the writing in their journals I glance into the Zac Posen store, I can't resist his silk, kelly green gown in the window. I see a woman walk in and look around, grab 3 items, bring them to the counter and without a thought purchases her pieces, has them wrapped in a velvety red tissue paper and black glazed box. Without a smile she takes her package and leaves. I wonder how many meals that purchase could have provided to the young boys watching me now on the other side of the wall?

heavy breeze pulling my hair

chill in the air, sun burning

clean fresh air

photos snapping

people staring and boat in the corner

cars crossing bridge to the right

This hill top view is something that I would expect only to find in Istanbul. A tree litter hill closing in on its twin to the left dotted by homes of the rich and more importantly the poor. One hill in this area is a the home of tin roofs, barefoot children and dirt roads that are so narrow a traveling bus could barely fit. The other hill is exposed to a world of wealth, apartments followed by country homes and private schools. Malls covering the majority of public space and far enough away to forget the cardboard homes just cross the street. This, as much as I stare at the beauty of this country is what consumes my thoughts. If Berlin is, "Poor but Sexy" then Istanbul is, "Beautiful but Sad."

Divinity

men watering their ear, faces and feet

people filling water bottles

prayer being sung around me

people lying on the grass smiling

hot sun above

"Anything that represented the divine was placed on gold to represent the things of highest value," our tour guide had explained. This is an idea that I wish I could bring back to the states. I am standing right below something that is considered the be grand, divine, holy even and the creators of this monument are so empowered by their faith that they express this with a bright gold painting on the ceiling of the "cleansing" tower for those to wash themselves during prayer time. I am truly moved by their faith, by their focus and ability to share their beliefs openly.

anticipation

sweating all over

excited

birds picking at food on the ground

clear sky

I came to Istanbul excited about a lot of things, but nothing excited me more then the prospect of seeing the Sofia church. The first Christian church, then Mosque then museum what an incredible transformation. Silenced shrubbery framed the outer wall of the church, and the cemented architecture only creates a more sophisticated atmosphere to the already elegant piece of art. The history of this building is what creates this emotion well up inside of me the sheer perfection and beauty that is shown through the curves and movements of the building could easily steal the emotion from history.

Tears

hot sun

people walking and whispering

shadows moving all around me

cameras going off

I cried at this moment. I had been crying but I really let myself cry at this point. I stood facing this memorial and I couldn't ear any of the sounds around me all I could focus on was the man being held by two guards. After walking through station Z i knew what had happened to that prisoner, I know how we died, I know what the nazi's did so that they didn't feel bad about what they were doing. I can see the unlit candles in the shape of the star of David, I can almost smell the flowers that are left at the foot of the statue highlighting the boney leg that hangs from the thin blanket. I can't stop crying.

Postcards

lots of people

a man selling bread

tables and chairs

a plastic banner announcing what we were seeing

a restaurant to the left

birds everywhere

a dry, sun beaten ground

This to me was like walking into Greece and feeling the heat of the greek sun and the birds of the sea singing songs you didn't want to end. While in reality it was pigeons I begged to leave and a sun I shied away from when possible. But that image in my mind didn't leave. I saw people protesting in togas and officials looking grim as they stood high on the pillars in my mind. I saw a meticulously dressed queen smile at the bystanders knowing she was the only peace that they would ever truly understand. This is what I saw, when I saw this monument.

Warm sweet smell in the air

crowed with people

mean security guards

benches and trash cans everywhere

much larger then the photo

This, similar to the painting in the Jewish museum is an awe-provoking sight to see. The magnificence of each individually carved body and face is something unlike I have ever come across in real life. You see pictures of statues and painting and are shocked, but until you stand before them in the shadow of their grandness do you ever really get to step inside the mind of the artist that created them. Each muscle is separated perfectly so that you can almost imagine then working together to create movement. Each chisel in the face allows you to see the smile that isn't even there. I sat on the steps for a moment to take it all in and decided that it was impossible to take all in. I choose pieces to never forget and others to admire and move along, there was simply to much perfection and beauty in what my eyes were seeing.

I want to cry

hundreds of languages kiss my ears

lots of people

bright sun

a pretty sadness all around

lots of "false" shrubbery

I stood in this exact spot at the concentration camp and before I even entered my eyes stung with halted tears. All of the languages being spoken but not understood by all must have been similar to the beginning confusion for the people arriving. The jews couldn't speak Hebrew, maybe the polish prisoners didn't speak German, and maybe the other unfortunate people to find themselves in this cemented hell couldn't understand any of it. Big windows in the cream colored cement give it brightness but such a fake happiness did it actually hold for those about to enter into "work."

Cold draft coming from above my head

photo flashes coming from my right side

silent attempts at walking all around

hungry

nervous

I am a Christian, and I am very proud for the beliefs that I hold in my faith. this photo hanging on the wall of the Jewish museum really stuck me and nearly pulled me in with its presence. I am not used to nudity, but the photo is so real, so emotional and truly perfect that I barely notice the lack of clothing. The child's leg seems to connect oddly to the mothers thigh, on purpose? I have no idea. The mother is so consumed in her love of this child that she holds, I wonder about the Father. His back faces us, is he worried, overwhelmed. The Jewish painter of this piece must have had a connection to the birth of "a child" to so fully develop these ideas in a painting.

very warm

thirsty

hundreds of people

cameras going off

loud talking all around

This was one of those moments in time that you literally freeze and stare. I stood staring up at this reflective mound of glass and wondered how this even came to be. How was it built? Why was it built? The questions flooded my mind but I was quickly brought back to reality when the noise of the crowds grew around me because of the central space I was blocking. That moment stuck with me, it made me reflect on my own image, the images around me and the position I was in. I was standing in the government building in Berlin, Germany! I am completely humbled by how fortunate I am to be here.

Istanbul...

I never thought that I would call Berlin home or that I would crave the bed in my apartment and the purple love seats so much. Istanbul is an incredible city and city full of imagery and sadness. I loved much of what I saw but I also saw things that broke my heart.

Last year around December I went to the Dominican Republic. There, there is a very specific point where one city turns into two cities; this point is the line between rich and poor. I saw this same line, or border, behind Kanyon mall. Behind this brilliantly beautiful retail heaven lays the lives of families that have no shoes and live in under constructed homes. In the Dominican the same image was brought to the forefront of my eyes when I saw young boys running around on dirt roads into homes made of aluminum and cardboard yet the happiest people on earth. Istanbul with its bright lights, large night life and extravagant hotels screams rich and new, but around the corner it the sad, forgotten majority of their country forced to look out their window into a world that is out of reach, it torn me apart. How can people become so ignorant to the truths all around them, to the black and white of their worlds? I see now the melancholy that Orhan was seeing. I may not see it as a collapse of an empire but I see it in the minds and eyes of the people that remain in that fallen empire. In the ignorance about which they live their lives, in the lack of change that I saw people striving for.

This ignorance made me feel even further from home then Berlin had. While I have always had an ocean between me and my family upon coming on this trip, it wasn’t until Istanbul that I noticed this distance. I saw parts of my life in Istanbul, I saw the colorful speech that my mother uses when she gets excited, I saw the protective nature of my father in the eyes of the other men in our group as they watched with careful eyes over us. I saw the playfulness of my sister when bartering for jewelry in the Grand Baazar and I saw the curiousness of my brother in each of us as we explored a city that was so unlike any other place. While all of these things reminded me of home I also found that would out-weighted my culture was, simply enough, their true culture. A lack of respect was very evident and while the freeness of the country was refreshing at first I seemed to miss the structure of Germany and many other more “westernized” (if that even really works) nations.

After trying a “humom” for the first time I can literally say that a part of me is still in Istanbul but more then anything I found out about a piece of me that I had not known yet. I found my ability to be uncomfortable. I consider myself to be a fairly confident person, I rarely find a place or person that can make me feel uneasy or lacking, I pride myself on this ability to adapt well in many different places with many different types of people. Yet in this humom, completely out of element, with utterly no control over the situation I was in was terrify. Istanbul had put me in my place and showed me that it is ok to feel as if you are the one person who forgot to wear clothes to school or who didn’t have the “cool” lunch box in elementary school. It was OK! I survived to tell about the unique experience, and while it was not something I would most likely do again, I did do it and I was painfully uncomfortable the entire time. But it was OK!! And who would have guessed that a 200lb naked Turkish women would need to bath me in order to learn that simply lesson…I needed Turkey to break that border that was unknown in my life.

After all of the hills that define Turkey and all of the people that support the culture I was ready to return “home.” I was ready to return to a language that now to me sounded more familiar to my ears, noises that brought back memories from the prior weeks. Turkey was truly a place of color and flavor, of chiseled mountains that were dotted by the homes of both rich and poor, Mosques that not only added to the skyline but created a majority of it. I wanted Berlin with every cell of my body by the time the plane had finally arrived in “my” city. The noises I recognized and the people smiled and the buses were the right colors in my mind. I was back where I wanted to be, where I somehow thought I belonged.

Postcards

Controversy

overheated

thirsty

laughing people around

questions flying

a damp dirty smell (diesel)

This picture while interesting and obviously profound for the time in Germany, didn't strike me personally very much. I do appreciate the idea of controversy and doing something that isn't allowed but it didn't move me the way that I hoped it would.

Cold wind lightly lowing

people walking all around

closer view

fenced in, in front of me

incredible awe

dirty smell

This is my favorite piece of art of the wall. I found it to be remarkable the amount of detail that was put into each stroke of the brush. I love the small parts that were dedicated to freedom such as the symbols of countries that possess freedom, (UK, America etc...) located on the top of a persons head as if it was on their mind. This art symbolized, I think, what must have been on most peoples mind. This struggle that could not always be communicated by words or sometimes wasn't allowed to be. As I continue to appreciate it more with each glance, I begin to see the artist in each movement of this brush. Painting to escape, painting to preach and painting for peace of mind. The piece is theirs but it is also any person that thinks that same, that is consumed by the same demons. This artist spoke without words.

warm

children running and laughing

a watery breeze

boat horns

people talking

pages turning

water

I love being at this manmade, temporary beach. It is such an powerful ideal and a unique location. The sand is warm and inviting to my toes, and the slight breeze of the near by water makes it the perfect location to relax and reflect. There is a group of young children playing in a makeshift pool and then running around enjoying themselves. We all sit here thinking about the idea of the movements of Berlin. The temporariness of the beach and other similar locations. The progression and progress of a single city.

Postcard...

first moment at wall

loud people around

photo snaps being taken

cold wind blowing

warm sun all around

cars driving by and horns honking

I am now standing on something that change the course of history for one nation and the worlds around it. My foot is placed on the lives of people who were oppressed for about appeared to be democracy. I am standing on cement that was ripped my the hands of the desperate praying in their minds, in their eyes and with each hit that freedom would ring, that their lives and the lives of the other side would survive. This is my moment, I am now a part of this wall because this wall just took apart of me.

Immigration

Today we saw a wide array of images at the immigration offices but the specific image that I would like to capitalize on is the image I saw in the New York City students’ art. I noticed when looking at the long winding trail lots of maps and postcards. The maps had marks on them and the postcards had addresses and notes to loved ones. This image made me feel a bit sad at first. What was going through the minds of the hundreds of people that sit in these seats for hours, waiting for their turn for maybe a second chance at life, or maybe for a chance to explore a new world for their own, what was on their minds when they saw these saw images that I see now? The art itself is kind of like the long and winding road that took these people on a journey to where they sit now and stare…waiting. This reminds of me of my mothers struggle to become a US citizen and the hardships she endured, the lines she waited in, the customs she was forced to learn and adapt.

On the wall to the side of the large art piece I have been describing was a framed photo of all the flags from the different countries that immigrates has come from into Berlin, Germany. While the American flag wasn’t present I was still jolted to life seeing all of these different countries, thinking of the reasons that some of these people might have fled. Persecution? Freedom? Justice? Opportunity? Family? The reasons are endless and it would be impossible to put all of people’s different struggles into a box. But just seeing this illustration of different worlds, cultures and beliefs all represented together, coming through this same room with millions of excuses to why is incredible. I find it truly fascinating and oddly uniting. One office that provides the same chance to these unique situations, it is something uncommon in the world today.

Postcards

quiet still air

silenced feet walking around me

a distant voice speaking of the German past

warm

physically tired

mind anxious

When I think about the communist German museum, this photo is the one that stays with me the most. Isn't freedom the most valuable right we can be given? I'm walking now and staring at the photos that are covering the minimalist walls. I already know about the dangers of communism and the human pain it causes, I am even more grateful for the incredible country that we live in that grants us these rights without question. The furniture here is mute, the colors are silent, maybe this is how the people felt? What do you do when you know that what is happening is wrong but you still need to comply because you must survive, you must try and succeed. The life behind these Berlin walls seemed impossible to survive.

mumbled voices

darkened hallway with dim lighting

footsteps all around

a business to move forward, right, left or out

the voice of the tour guide explaining the names

a dry smell in the air of...almost paint

This was a shocking image. Not only was this art piece intriguing to look at but what I found to be truly remarkable was the recognition of every Parliment official and even those who were harmed by the Nazi regime. I love that they paid attention to these details and that everyone was included without exclusion (except for the years under east German control because there was no Parliment.) Each darkened name, each darkened box is illuminated by this single bulb that brings with such a clarity. It appears that have no end, I think that may be the intention though, to show that true government, honest and pure government always continues and will never end.

Peers taking photos

making jokes about getting our licenses

warm hot wind blowing all around

aching feet

chipped paint

fenced in, unable to touch

This piece of art is so fun to look at, it brings back so many good and bad moments in life. I made and heard comments about people and the accidents that they got into as a young adults and I heard the comments on the choice of a light blue background. Yet what I found to be powerful about the art was the idea of breaking through the wall and entering not only a new area of town, or even a new state but what essentially was a new world to those from east to west or west to east. What a sad but incredibly historic time to be in Germany and what a wonderful way to depict this struggle.

very quiet

light steps of walking people

the sound of pages turning in notebooks

scribbling pens

a light and gentle breeze

the smell of fresh air

a bright sun shining on everything and everyone

In my daily journal I discuss the importance of this image and of what this memorial means to me so I won't go on very long in this postcard entry. Besides its beauty (lush trees, mowed lawns, cemented statures, the symmetry...) and the very real emotions that it made me feel, this memorial says a great deal about the respect that must be paid to the dead regardless if their life was lost or taken for a bad cause. Life is life in the end and not one persons life is worth more then another's.

Disbelief

I don’t even know how much I can actually write about today, it was the mot shocking, interesting, disheartening and sad experience to date. I know about the holocaust have read and researched it before and having always had a very distinct interest in it I thought that the camp experience would be hard but I never could have guessed how hard. The tour guide was wonderful for but the information that we freely gave broke my heart each time. I couldn’t stop crying when I saw the signs near the small bathrooms that were supposed to support up to 400 people. I don’t understand the capabilities of man until I saw what happened at station Z, or anywhere on that camp for that matter. You never really realize the amount of manipulation and evil that man can possess. When he mentioned the neo-Nazi attacks that have happened more recently it fears me even more to think that this hate is still alive today. What would it take to change these people’s minds? What could make them hate another race so much? How do we stop such destructive hatred in this world and is that really ever possible?

Underneath Berlin

Today was by far the longest day of all. The bunkers were an amazing sight to see and were in amazing condition for how long ago everything occurred. The story that shocked me the most was when our tour guide explained the positives and negatives to bathroom stalls. I can’t imagine what these poor women went through. The short moments when they finally were able to get privacy, to have a moment of peace was then perverted by the soviet guards. The pain and fear that they lived in scares me to my bones and remind me of the blessings I have in America, a free country.

The Jewish Berlin past and present museum was another museum that I wish I could have had a bit more time in. It would have been incredible to experience it in its entirety, winding through the misshapen rooms, the odd lighting and modern movement was thrilling. The architecture of the building was something that I had never experienced before. Similarly the garden of exile reminded me of the feelings I had when venturing into the holocaust memorial in the center of Berlin. The lost, lonely and slightly depressing emotions that run through you when you seem to be struggling to leave but desperate to stay amongst those you know, it was quite an experience.

Never to be Forgotten

We were very fortunate today to get to visit some incredible sights in Berlin, but I would like to focus this entry on the memorial of the holocaust in the center of the city. What an incredible sight to see, what an incredible feeling and the location emphasize this even more. Such a grand memorial to take up such a large amount of space in a city as large and populated as Berlin was truly amazing to see. Although there was a debate about whether or the not memorial was positive or negative I am happy that they made the correct choice to build it. Something that is as beautiful and unique as it is cannot be ignored, and not being ignored means being recognized. I think that the memorial is a consistent reminder of the travesties that occurred but also of the progression of a nation that while having made a terrible mistake is moving forward without forgetting.

No More Walls, No More Wars, One United World

The walking of the wall and the Soviet Union memorial are almost impossible to describe. Starting our day walking to wall was like walking through the minds of other people. We started with a mock enthusiasm as being foreigners at such a monumental place. But as we continued our walk my mind was completely consumed in what I was seeing. I was no longer aware of my classmates or the other people on the streets or even the bike lane near by. The art owned my mind for those moments that I walked along history. Each piece had such a profound meaning and such an individual perspective on not all the problems of the time but on the world as a whole. I saw quotes such as my title as well as “don’t hate things, change them,” all with obvious connections to the communism that separated an entire city. Beyond the art I thought often about the general idea of a wall being built to separate right and wrong, communist VS free but also people from people. I can’t even begin to imagine what it would be like if that were to happen in Seattle, what would I do? What would my family and friends do? And how incredibly did the people of Berlin survive through this diversity?

The Soviet Union memorial was different for me then for most people I am guessing. I found it beautiful, which was simply a fact of the eyes, but I also found it very sad. The death of lives is always sad, sad for those men that died for what they “thought” to be right. But should I mourn the lives of communist? Of people who tortured and judged other unfairly? I might be ignorant to the entire concept but I found myself untouched my emotions other then how unfair it all seemed. Why does America not have such a grand memorial for our freedom fighting soldiers?

Today was emotional…

Finding a Journal

Finding my journal was an experience I didn’t expect at all. It was my first day here and Berlin and the culture shock allow was enough to confuse a naïve American girl such as myself. As I walked to the closest store to my apartment, all I could hear was what sounded like mumbling all around me. The words that were spoken were completely indistinguishable and therefore gibberish to me. When I finally arrive to the convenience store I saw a simply notepad and snatched it up. The store attendant, obviously unable to speak English, mumbled to me something completely foreign. After about a 5 minute routine in which we both took turns trying and failing to speak and then trying and failing again to understand, he finally gave me the notebook for free and pushed me out of the store. So I guess in conclusion Berlin and its language might just save me some money but definitely not stress.